Damn Creative Block!

I can’t think of anything creative to do! I have all this creative energy building and building up in my brain and I feel like I’m going to explode. Everytime I open up Illustrator I just stare at it… and hope that something comes to me… but it doesn’t. Ugh. Staring at a blank screen is more irritating to me than staring at a blank piece of paper. I’ve got to get over this before I POP! There has to be ways to get past creative block right? I’m so tired of waiting this out. I wanna create, I wanna make something awesome, something I’m super proud of. Lately I haven’t even been able to take photos. I just don’t want to point the camera at anything. :sigh: I’m probably sinking into a depression again. Maybe if I get ahead of it it won’t be as bad this time. Wonder what set it off? Probably the holidays… or my cranky friends… or my lack of “labeled significant other”. I’ve got to get out and do something exciting. I’ve got to be excited about something… and FAST!

WOO! New laptop… kinda

We were cleaning out the office today and my mom found her old laptop under her desk. She thought it was broken so she just gave it to me but guess what… it’s not! It turned right on and started right up. I had to wipe it and restore it back to factory but mostly because I just didn’t want all the out dated crap on it. Now it’s all fresh and clean and… not really shiny but still, so AWESOME! Currently trying to install Illustrator as we speak, hopefully it all works out well and I’ll have a new laptop all set up for myself I’m so excited. Hopefully I’ll be able to get some extra stuff done while I’m out and about. Maybe I’ll even get some graphic stuff done. But lets not get my hopes up. Lets see if everything installs good and runs alright before I start getting set in my plans.

Only bad thing about this laptop is it doesn’t have a memory stick reader but those are easy enough to get. I have to get a wireless mouse and maybe a case for it. Hmm… hard or soft case? Probably hard just to protect it a little more. Especially if I’m gonna carry it in my backpack. OH MAN! My backpack is gonna be sooo heavy now. Ugh! Got to go through things again and decide which stuff I need and don’t need. :sigh:

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Went to see Breaking Dawn today with my mom. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be. They actually might pull this off by the last one. I’ll probably have to go watch it again with Katie and Virginia. I haven’t told them I went to see it yet, hopefully they won’t care. If they do… tough shit, I can’t take back seeing it. :shrugs: Also so the Muppets today for the second time. It was AWESOME! Again! It’s kind of sad right, that I’m more impressed with the Muppets than anything else right now? I’m almost 25 and I still get more excited to see the Muppets or play the new Batman game than I do… anything else really. But what can I say, I’m a kid at heart. Except right now… I’m watching Red Dragon for the 5th time this month I think. I just love Hannibal. I can’t even explain why. Something about his intelligence and attitude just make me smile. That’s probably a bad thing right. That serial killers make me smile for no reason. Just add it to the list of my abnormalities. It’s becoming a rather long list. One day I might write it all down and post it. Other than that nothing new is going on. Same old life… same old me. Nothing new or adventurous. I am planning to make some awesome cupcakes for Thanksgiving. Hopefully they come out as awesome as I hope. Otherwise I’ll be very upset and throw a very dramatic and unnecessary temper tantrum.

My hatred…

For blank paper. I can’t stand to look at blank paper. I just get this urge to fill it with nonsense, just so it’s not empty anymore.

Starting Fresh

Erased all my old posts and am starting fresh. So fresh and so clean clean Going to *hopefully* upload something almost everyday. I’ve got the app on my phone now so I should be able to post something easily.